You’re having a difficult time of it right now but you’ll get through it. I have some more thoughts if you’re open to hearing them.
I think at this point it might be helpful to reframe the task and simplify your priorities. Choosing a name is one the first big decisions we make for our children but ultimately all our children need is a solid name to identify with before taking ownership of it themselves. I believe there is always more than one good choice, there are probably innumerable good choices, and our children will do well with just one of them.
I say this because the pressure parents feel to choose the right name is often pressure the parents put on themselves. So any way you can lower the pressure or the noise is something worth trying.
So this is how I would approach it if I was concentrating strictly on the essentials. I would look back at my lists for names I’ve enjoyed for a long time. [name_m]Even[/name_m] if they don’t seem to click right now, the odds are you will still enjoy hearing these names in years to come. Does your husband agree on any of these names? If so, that would be my short list.
You could narrow down your list by allowing your husband to choose his favourite from the options. You could choose the name that has been your longest favourite. You could choose the name with the least issues. Whichever way you go, you can be sure that it’s a good choice and will serve your son well.
It’s of course easier said than done, but I hope something works and you can get yourself unstuck. It might mean leaning on your husband or some other criteria to help make the decision. I’m sure the name you ultimately choose will grow on you too and feel right with time. I wish you all the luck!