Warning for unhealthy romantic obsession and toxic exes.
[name_f]Neya[/name_f] [name_m]Haneul[/name_m] [name_m]Lee[/name_m] (28) is a complicated figure for [name_m]Bernard[/name_m], which is why she’s found things much harder since [name_f]Anastasie[/name_f] entered the picture. [name_f]Neya[/name_f] was admittedly trying to hold onto what she had with [name_m]Bernard[/name_m], often wishing she could have done things differently to get together with him. A lot of Neya’s outlook was how she was growing up, she was admittedly desperate. She felt a lot of pressure from friends who had boyfriends while she was single, which made her feel more alienated. The closest she had was a male friend, though he clearly wasn’t romantically interested in her. And she wasn’t to him, but she’d go for it, feeling she didn’t have another option. [name_f]Neya[/name_f] worries she hurt this friendship now, feeling this is why he wants to keep his friendships and relationships separate. [name_f]Neya[/name_f] agrees, not wanting to ruin any more friendships, though she hated one of the boyfriends she settled with for a different reason. He was toxic, and they’ve become lovers instantly, but now they’re enemies.
Neya’s not sure if she wants marriage. She’s been proposed briefly before by her toxic ex, in a nightclub no less (it was the only place they genuinely had fun). She didn’t want to go clubbing forever and related to [name_m]Bernard[/name_m] in him not wanting to be gambling forever. Their relationship felt much more true to [name_f]Neya[/name_f] than anything else, mainly because [name_m]Bernard[/name_m] was such a nice individual. He and [name_f]Neya[/name_f] weren’t each other’s types, which they’ve tried to look past, until they couldn’t anymore. There were benefits, such as her clubbing and his gambling obsessions going away; but while there weren’t diamonds in the club, there were spades in the heart. [name_f]Neya[/name_f] didn’t want to imagine life without someone so kind and charming as him, as if she had what she truly wanted, not what she was pressured to want.
Lately since [name_m]Bernard[/name_m] and his wife married and had [name_f]Anastasie[/name_f], Neya’s felt herself “more irrelevant”. She knows she obviously can’t pursue him, so she’s tried hard to make herself seem over it. She’s very workaholic in her office career, which is how she keeps busy. She has tried to take up modern art, but she’s not good at it, which makes her less confident at times. She doesn’t talk about them or talk to them, blocking [name_m]Bernard[/name_m] despite him never contacting her. [name_f]Neya[/name_f] knows her coping isn’t the best, though she’s trying what she can to make it the worst. [name_f]Neya[/name_f] doesn’t want to be dramatic, but if she had a picture of the couple, she’d burn it. She’s considered going to [name_f]Delia[/name_f] or someone who works with her but it’s concerning given some worries [name_f]Neya[/name_f] would want [name_f]Delia[/name_f] to “take a side”. She wants to give her mind and body the break it needs from love, and be happy for once as a single. Equally important is trying to be happy for [name_f]Anastasie[/name_f], knowing she doesn’t have to be around the baby ever if it’s going to trigger toxicity from her. But [name_m]Bernard[/name_m] is happy with his daughter and he always will be, and [name_f]Anastasie[/name_f] deserves the world.