I breastfed my first till 2 yrs and the same with my second, I am now due my third and the thought of having to breastfeed again fills me with dread.
I only ever wanted to breastfeed for a few months and then switch to bottles to regain my independence but both times I have ended up being a dummy!
In the early days breastfeeding felt good, that I was giving my baby the best I possibly could but then they seem to become so attached I can’t break free from it. I just keep on doing it to keep the peace as otherwise nothing else would calm them.
Of late the feeling of it, the lack of sleep, everything the sensation of it really irritates me, can’t describe it but itchy/annoyed like arghh please just stop.
If I even begin to breastfeed my third I know I will still be sat there 2 years later and not sure if I would manage with it and I just want to be the best happy mum I can be but bottle feeding is so just so unnatural to me! I’m scared I will just feel so so guilty like I gave the others the best I could and not this one.