Tw: abuse
Hey there, I’m a 26 year old parent. I’m trans and use he/him pronouns. I have anxiety, ptsd, insomnia, asd, and a few other health issues. I’m currently working on getting my ssi.
I’ve had to take care of my son since he was a newborn by myself. Luckily he always slept through the whole night ever since he was born. His other parent has never really been in the picture, as he went towards drugs for no reason other than he wanted to live that life and I’m not for it.
[name_m]Long[/name_m] story short I always gave my child his tablet every day because it was keeping him busy and getting his mind off everything happening to us while we were getting abused and moving over and over and being harassed daily. This harassment did not stop until we moved into our current apartment two or three months ago. He turned 7 years old [name_f]April[/name_f] 10th of this year. So basically he had to deal with this almost his whole life up until now.
I don’t want to talk about this extreme harassment due to it being extremely inappropriate and vulgar towards me and my child, but let’s just say we couldn’t do anything besides be trapped in a room together while I cry, talk to my ldr partner, and make sure my kid was safe and happy. [name_f]My[/name_f] abuser passed away a month after we got rescued, just so you guys don’t worry about him coming for me.
He’s used to being on his tablet. He never wants to do anything else at all unless he’s taking a shower and playing with the toys he has or if my mom is here, as he only likes playing with his toys with her.
He has the mind of a teenager. He watches teen/adult anime, shows, youtubers, etc. He just wants to lay around and go on his tablet every single day all day long. I hate seeing it.
I feel like a failure but I just wanted him to be calm and happy at the time instead of him crying in fear.
He currently has action figures, art supplies, dinosaur toys, car toys, etc, but maybe he’s too “grown up” for that to play with those things alot I guess.
I can’t afford anything, but maybe in the future a few things I can think of that I know he’ll like doing is big legos and a bouncy ball that we can both play with together maybe.
I hope someone can help me and give me tips or insight because I’m at a loss of what to do and I’m honestly getting emotional and trying not to cry from exhaustion.