So I have read a few posts questioning whether its okay to use a name that you found in a bit of a morbid way. In my case, I’d never liked [name]Rowan[/name], [name]Roman[/name] or [name]Ronan[/name], I just thought they sound really harsh. I have no clue thinking back why I thought that; but I just didn’t even consider them as an option.
When [name]Taylor[/name] Swift released [name]Ronan[/name] on Stand Up To Cancer, I cried a lot (obviously,) the song was so beautifully devastating. But I was just so taken by the brilliant blue eyes that came up when I searched the song. So after that I started reading his mother [name]Maya[/name] [name]Thompson[/name] blog. I read about how it all started how his eye had been a little lazy and her intuition said it was something more. I poured over her blog, reading moments of joy and sadness, taking in exactly what she was going through (something you’d hate to happen to anyone or their child/children.) [name]Reading[/name] about the night that he passed away was probably the most confronting thing and just wanting to reach out and hold his poor mother.Then eventually making my way to her youtube page. I watched video after video of this little boy so beautiful with his glittering eyes and gorgeous smile. He was just so lively, so loving, and such a rascal! It amazed me a little boy who was undergoing so many set-backs was more alive that most people. But I suppose that can be said for many little ones struggling through something so horrendous. Hearing [name]Ronan[/name]'s story interested me to make a difference and so I have started organising a few events in my area that will support Neuroblastoma. That one little boy has really impacted me and changed my whole outlook on my life.
I know that if I named my future son [name]Ronan[/name], I presume very few people I know would ask me why I picked it; but I worry that my reasoning is off. I love the name, and I know things will probably change when the time comes to have a baby. But as I write this I wonder how many Berries are thinking I am a nutcase!
I just really love the name and despite little [name]Ronan[/name]'s death, I have a really positive association with the name because of his character.
What do you think? Am I crazy?