I was blessed to have two healthy pregnancies; however, my third ended up being an ectopic and my fourth was a missed miscarriage.
With my third pregnancy, I had a bad feeling from the beginning. I just felt like I wouldn’t be fortunate to have three healthy pregnancies. I was paranoid from the start. I wasn’t experiencing morning sickness or anything. One day, I had terrible cramping and pain. I thought it was pressure due to constipation because I couldn’t go; however, I was in so much pain, I was doubled over and couldn’t move. I remember finally moving to the tub to see if a hot bath would help alleviate the pain. It helped a little. We called the doctor and they said it was normal. It didn’t feel normal. I went to the ER the next day. I had to schedule an ultrasound for the following day. I wasn’t given the results but, they were sent to my doctor (who never received them). The cramping never really stopped and I had mild bleeding. My doctor monitored my HCG and it kept rising but not doubling. I ended up having intense pain again and this time chose to go to another hospital. Again, they found nothing. My doctor finally scheduled an appointment (they don’t see patients until 10 weeks) and discovered I had a tubal pregnancy. I was scheduled for surgery the next day. It turns out, it had ruptured and I was bleeding internally. If I had waited another week, I probably would have lost my life. [name_m]Even[/name_m] now, the reality of that hasn’t sunk in. I feel like I’m being overly dramatic. I lost my ovary and fallopian tube.
My miscarriage wasn’t life threatening but, it was definitely traumatic. I experienced morning sickness the first couple of weeks and then it stopped. I remained optimistic because I didn’t experience any miscarriage symptoms and I went to my first appointment (10 weeks) excited. They did an ultrasound and told me that it was measuring small. I didn’t think anything about it until they said there was no blood flow. I had lost the baby at 7 weeks. That’s three weeks of thinking I was fine and my baby was healthy. I broke down in tears. I scheduled a D&C for later that week.
Both of these happened within a year. I was recently blessed with my rainbow baby but, I still think about what could have been. Especially since my due date for my ectopic was around the same time as his.