My first thought upon reading your post is that the excitement and positivity towards [name_m]Lowen[/name_m] sounds like it’s driven by external opinion and would be more of a head decision and possibly people pleasing in nature, whereas your feelings toward [name_m]Grayson[/name_m] are driven by internal factors and would be more of a heart decision. I may be reading too much into it, but that’s just how it came across to me.
I’d encourage you to sit with [name_m]Grayson[/name_m] again and give him a chance to fully win your heart back. Especially as [name_m]Grayson[/name_m] is your longest love for years and years and you are now coming back to him just a few weeks later after the initial surprise of not feeling like your son fits the name. Feelings often change toward names throughout pregnancy. [name_m]The[/name_m] naming process happens alongside getting to know your baby, spending more time with your baby, and shifting from broad ideas about your future family to specific decisions in the present. It’s totally okay to feel like he fits a name one day, and then not, another day, and then again the next. You’re only just getting to know him!
Once we found out we were having a son, it took me time to adjust my thinking and reorientate myself. We had a front runner for while and then we both started to feel less excited by it. It wasn’t until late in the third trimester when one name started to grow on me. It was even a name I had initially dismissed when my husband suggested it. We only made our final decision when our son was 5 days old.
All this to say, you have time to change your mind, or to be unsure and not know yet – you will eventually figure this out and make the right decision for you.