tw: ED; toxic friendship; mentions of Pro-Ana culture; affairs
[name_u]Rose[/name_u] [name_f]Cecilia[/name_f] Nordham (21) is one of the few members of the Discord who met [name_u]Madison[/name_u] in person, however she’s now left and their close association has crumbled. At one point they were such good friends, [name_u]Rose[/name_u] was one of the mods of the forum, and she has an extensive background in the ‘Pro-Ana’ circles, beginning when she was only 13. Food became embroiled with [name_u]Rose[/name_u] witnessing the divorce of her parents. Her father began an affair when she was 10 and two years into this situation, Rose’s mother became aware, unleashing chaos after she overheard a row between her parents, exposing the fact the man she once thought could do no wrong had not only betrayed her mom, but planned on abandoning them [Rose, her mom and younger brother] to start a new life with his girlfriend.
Rose’s battle with anorexia started not long after this. She was convinced if she became the model of an All American [name_f]Girl[/name_f] that her dad wouldn’t replace her with a new baby, and so her cycle began. It was online that she met similarly minded people, likewise suffering with complex distress and trauma, which led to their eating disorders, and the environment of encouragement and competition led to [name_u]Rose[/name_u] believing she was somehow positively impacted by anorexia. This was initially hidden by her brother deciding to wage a one person war against their dad and his girlfriend, meaning their mom was caught up in trying to stop her son from egging his fathers’ car, and Rose’s weight fluctated in a less conventional manner than stereotypical portrayals of anorexia, meaning she hid it better.
[name_u]Madison[/name_u] was the final frontier of her illness. Their sense of isolation and negative self-perception created an understanding, something important for them both but incredibly unhealthy. The Discord forum actually led to Rose’s mom realising what was going on with her daughter, as she noticed how she was only eating in her room [Rose was actually taking photos of the food she was eating - the majority of her plate ending in the bin]. When confronted, [name_u]Rose[/name_u] tried to deny things, but her mom pressed the issue and she eventually admitted she was struggling with her self-image and health.
The dissolving of [name_u]Rose[/name_u] and Madisons’ friendship wasn’t public, but privately unpleasant. [name_u]Madison[/name_u] felt abandoned when [name_u]Rose[/name_u] announced she couldn’t belong to the server anymore - having been encouraged by her therapist to leave, given the environment was making her mental state worsen - and lashed out, insulting the impact of her gaining weight in the hope it would cause her to change her mind. It didn’t work. [name_u]Rose[/name_u] was determined to get away, and she succeeded.
Unbeknownst to both parties, there might be a reunion between [name_u]Rose[/name_u] and [name_u]Madison[/name_u] sooner than later. [name_u]Rose[/name_u] has been online to meet more people - keeping away from any diet or exercising sites - and actually has encountered one of Madisons’ roommates, who she’s been keeping in frequent contact with, thanks to their shared passion for making clay figures, as [name_u]Rose[/name_u] is actually studting animation; not that the penny’s dropped…yet. Her dad recently called to reveal his girlfriend’s pregnant - dreaded news for [name_u]Rose[/name_u] once - but she’s managed to handle this well given her state of mind, and is determined to not treat her younger half-sibling with prejudice, in spite of her fathers’ actions.