Hey there ladies! I’ve been thinking of you since it’s Mother’s [name_u]Day[/name_u]. [name_f]Hope[/name_f] you survived unscathed!
@maggie, at our church they had a really nice wish for the day, and they included an acknowledgement that it might be a difficult day for some people, maybe because someone has lost their mom, or because they want to be a mom. It was super sweet and it made me think of all you ladies. Sorry your nice long message got lost, but yes, it totally makes sense what you’re saying about someone asking how you’re doing isn’t “opening” a wound, it’s recognizing the wound. I think if more people understood that, we wouldn’t be so afraid to touch the subject. I’ll definitely keep all of this in mind in the future. Also, I’m dying over some of that advice. You poor thing!
@kala That’s great. I’m so happy for you! It’s the miracle we are all hoping for.
I’m still waiting to do the pregnancy test on Thursday. In the meantime I got ill with some viral flu thing and spent two days having heavy fevers. I’m so angry. I hope that it didn’t affect our chances because it happened right when implantation should have taken place and my body was weak due to illness.
Yes, they did something similar at my church. I was very pleased and touched. The advice thing is totally crazy. It has taught me to shut my mouth in many cases, and to watch my words more carefully than I used to!
@Dottipanda - Oh no! I’m sorry. I hope the fever did not hurt any chances of implantation. I am also having my blood pregnancy test on Thursday, so here’s hoping we both end up with good news!
BFN for my first IUI cycle. I tried so hard not to get my hopes up, but apparently I failed because I’m a weepy mess. Nearly 3 dang years. I don’t know how much longer I can keep trying… :’( :’(
[name_f]Maggie[/name_f], silently following . . . and was so hoping for good new today for you. Lots of hugs from afar and so hope you get good news soon. I went through IUI 3 times, to get my little guy, including one miscarriage - and I remembering being in that dark place of despair all too clearly. I just want you to know that at least one ( I suspect many more then that though!) person was out there praying and hoping for you.
Another silent thread stalker here - I’m so sorry to hear that news [name_f]Maggie[/name_f]. I’m praying for you and sending hugs. I know how devastating and grinding each month becomes, as well as the loss of hope when medical interventions that should work just don’t. I’m praying for you as you grieve, and I so hope that there will be good news soon.
I’ve had a negative as well. In sorry, [name_f]Maggie[/name_f], it hurts real bad. But it was only the first try. We are pausing for one cycle and then have a second go. :’-(
Thank you everyone. I am very touched by all the people who have been following our journey. I’ve had a bit of a cry these past two days, but I guess we’ll move onwards for the next cycle.
@Dottipanda - I’m so sorry. I was really hoping this was it for both of us. hugs
I’m so sorry to hear that [name_f]Dotti[/name_f]. I hope and pray that you will both get good news on the next try. I’m sure there are many people thinking of you. Gosh fertility struggles are harder than I ever imagined
Sorry to just pop up and not properly introduce myself - I was gearing up to join the thread at 1 year TTC but couldn’t log into my account for some reason! I now appear to have conceived, although it’s early and I’m very nervous.
I’m so sorry to hear that [name_f]Dotti[/name_f]. I hope and pray that you will both get good news on the next try. I’m sure there are many people thinking of you. Gosh fertility struggles are harder than I ever imagined
Sorry to just pop up and not properly introduce myself - I was gearing up to join the thread at 1 year TTC but couldn’t log into my account for some reason! I now appear to have conceived, although it’s early and I’m very nervous.
@Winteriscoming - [name_f]Welcome[/name_f] to the thread and congratulations to you!
Update from me: AF arrived on the weekend, making this the shortest cycle I’ve had since starting TTC almost 3 years ago, I guess due to the drugs. I had an ultrasound this morning and am back on the Gonal-F train for another IUI. If this doesn’t work, we will take a break as we will be away in the middle of [name_u]June[/name_u]. Please keep all your fingers and toes crossed. At least I know what to expect this time and am not phased by the needles, etc.
@Winteriscoming - [name_f]Welcome[/name_f] to the thread and congratulations to you!
Update from me: AF arrived on the weekend, making this the shortest cycle I’ve had since starting TTC almost 3 years ago, I guess due to the drugs. I had an ultrasound this morning and am back on the Gonal-F train for another IUI. If this doesn’t work, we will take a break as we will be away in the middle of [name_u]June[/name_u]. Please keep all your fingers and toes crossed. At least I know what to expect this time and am not phased by the needles, etc.
Thank you @Saracita. I keep thinking it will get easier, but the disappointment hits me hard every time. We’re back in the game now, doing the injections. I had an ultrasound yesterday and have another tomorrow to see how the follicles are developing. It’s a holiday weekend here, so getting up at dawn to have someone stick a wand in my unmentionable parts is not how I planned to relax, but oh well! I had a long talk with my mom the other day where I went into some detail about all the stuff going on - the needles, ultrasounds, etc. She was surprised. This is the side people rarely see when they throw suggestions at you and say, “Why don’t you just try X.” There is no “just” in this game. [name_f]Every[/name_f] step is hard and time-consuming and expensive and awkward. Maybe one day I’ll have made peace with it all, but for now I just keep trying to put one foot in front of the other.
@maggie and dotti - I am so sorry, my heart is with you.
I realize it’s been a while since I’ve posted! My Dr. apt went well, I suppose. He said that he’s optimistic that the pain I felt and the high amount of pressure he needed to apply during my HSG indicates that I may have had a partial blockage that was freed by the procedure and that we may have increased chances of TTC now, but it’s only a conjecture. The RE also suggested that we only do medication, not IUI, since my husband’s count is pretty good. However, I only get three covered medicated cycles and I’m considering asking for the IUI since it’s included with each medicated cycle. I’m on the fence though - I want to have the highest chances possible, but also do things with as little invasiveness as possible.
We were able to try naturally this month, but I’m about 80% sure I’m not pregnant. It’s probably for the best through, since there’s a possible risk of radiation exposure to the developing follicle during the HSG (dr. didn’t say it, but I think that means a higher risk of miscarriage?). I’ll probably go through the ovulation induction process for my next cycle, but I have a big deadlines both in the middle and at the end of [name_u]June[/name_u] (they were pushed up, ugh) and am nervous about stress interfering with things. We have until my period starts to decide whether we actually want to go through with it this month I guess.
@Raptreverie - That’s a lot to process. I hope that clearing the blockage is what jump starts you towards pregnancy and that you’re able to decide what to do for the next cycle. If you have big deadlines, it might make sense not to do the IUI this time. I find that it takes up a significant amount of time in the middle of the cycle because you have to monitor and make sure you catch ovulation.
I’m still plugging along at this cycle. I ended up with yet another thing to inject in myself in the mornings (on top of the Gonal-F in the evenings), so that’s fun. I should find out tomorrow how it’s all progressing.
I saw this article and wanted to share with all of you. It’s about mental health and infertility. I have found my mental health significantly affected by what I’ve gone through in the past 2.5 years. It needs to be said again and again that if you are struggling, that is okay and normal, and you don’t have to be ashamed or embarrassed. Infertility is terribly taxing on your physical and emotional health and it’s okay to need help to get through it. Please feel free to PM me if need be:|http://www.today.com/health/unmet-dreams-having-baby-put-women-risk-depression-1D80137667
Thanks for the article, [name_f]Maggie[/name_f]. Thankfully I’ve not been to badly affected by IF - just had some weepy and some moody patches, and I’ve lost that feeling that everything will somehow work out. I guess I’ve become a lot more pessimistic about everything, not just fertility. I was lucky that I have a great relationship and an interesting and fulfilling job that gives me a feeling of purpose. Without those two factors I think I would have dealt a lot worse with IF.
Good luck on your second IUI. When is it going to take place?
Pausing for a month has been great for my husband and me. We have been indulging in all those things we had to cut out/cut back while TTC: hot baths and saunas, alcohol, coffee… Also or sex life has improved. We are having more and more enjoyable sex this month tab in the last two years. I guess the pressure is off.
@Dottipanda - That’s good to hear that you haven’t been too badly affected. I have been hit pretty hard, probably due to not having much of a support network (since I moved 2 years previous to TTC and left my support network and job behind) and not having much of a career. Perhaps I will cope better if I get a job now that I’m graduating. I’ve never been down such a dark road as the road of infertility, but hopefully with counseling I will find the light somehow.
Sad update from me: I had my ultrasound today and the follicles have stopped growing. Initially, things looked promising as I had several follicles growing, and they put me on a second drug to keep me from ovulating too early. I guess it led my body to think I’d ovulated already, so the follicles stopped and I’m spotting already at day 16. I’ve spent a small fortune on all this medication, and there will be no IUI. They are not sure what to do next because to do the same process could yield a similar reaction, so I’m supposed to book a follow-up with my doctor. I suspect she will push IVF, though my husband and I are fairly sure IVF is not for us. Perhaps there is another procedure we could follow for an IUI, but we’ll see. I am devastated. It felt like this was our best chance to have a child, and now it’s failed. I’m pretty low and will probably lay of the forum for a while, but sending my best wishes to everyone else.
Oh no! I’m so sorry, [name_f]Maggie[/name_f]! That sucks! [name_f]Do[/name_f] you reckon that the medication change was what caused the development to stop? Or do you think it would have been a list cycle anyway? Does that mean you are out until august now?
I’m also really sorry that you had to struggle “alone” with the infertility. In so grateful to my mum and sister and more recently some of my best friends for listening to my repeated laments. I hope this forum helps a bit.
