[name]Hi[/name] there everyone,
I hope you are all doing well 
There was a bit of a spanner thrown in the works over this end! Its forced me to rethink how exactly I’m going to go about this name buisness.
Basically, it turns out that (although I was named after a family member) in actual fact it was my grandmother who named me. Now, I’ve never really had any strong family ties etc… and its an extremely long, complicated story, but my grandmother has given me a lot of (much needed) support through some incredibly tough times lately (mainly regarding problems with my immediate family etc).
I now feel very strange about changing the first name, out of loyalty to her and the level of support she has given me recently. So I am now considering keeping my original first name, despite my hatred for it.
If I have to grin and bear this awful name for the rest of my days (you can tell I’m a little dramatic, haha) then I want to make up for it in other ways.
I still [name]ADORE[/name] [name]Phoebe[/name], and this is definately going in the middle name spot. I was thinking I could mainly go by my “middle name”…nobody is really going to know the difference right? And its still perfectly legal to do so.
OR…
I’m very seriously considering [name]Fairfax[/name] as my new surname (I know, finally eh?) and its really been growing on me to use it as my “first” name, if you get what I mean? It would be put in the surname spot, but I’d use it mainly as a first name. Am I making any sense?
What would you think of a girl named [name]Fairfax[/name]? I adore the idea of using [name]Faye[/name] or Faira as nicknames too.
A lot of people would still know me as [name]Bee[/name] of course, but I’m moving to a new part of the country and joining university pretty soon- where I won’t know anybody. I think I could pretty easily get away with this. I think its classic, spunky and rather pretty in an unconventional way too.
What do you think? Would it work?
[name]Phoebe[/name] or [name]Fairfax[/name]? [name]Bee[/name] or [name]Faye[/name]/Faira?
I’m so confused…but you’re probably used to me being so undecisive by now, haha. I’m getting so much closer to that final decision now…and if I get there soon, I can change it within the next month or so, which is pretty exciting!