cw: mentioned religious trauma
[name_f]Audre[/name_f] [name_f]Ilona[/name_f] Penobscott (Born [name_f]Audre[/name_f] [name_f]Glory[/name_f] [name_f]Praise[/name_f] Penobscott) [14] is a close friend of [name_f]Em[/name_f], possibly one of her best. Initially their friendship was started due to their frequent close proximity as [name_f]Audre[/name_f] was a member of the same gymnastics gym that [name_f]Em[/name_f] attended. Seeing one another multiple times a week certainly leads to lots of conversations and eventual bonds, though as they aged they learned that they had more in common than they initially thought. [name_f]Audre[/name_f] also comes from a single parent household, specifically a single mother like [name_f]Em[/name_f].
Audre’s mother and father were raised in a very conservative [name_u]Christian[/name_u] area of the south. Things were very strict, especially in terms of who could do what with regards of gender roles. The women were expected to be perfect, obedient wives and mothers while the men were supposed to be the breadwinners and the leaders. Her parents got married straight out of high school when her mother was seventeen and her father was eighteen. By their one year wedding anniversary they were already expecting [name_f]Audre[/name_f] who was later joined when she was two by a younger sister, and a younger brother the year after that.
She was raised for the first five years of her life in the same strictness that her parents were, until a few months after her seventh birthday and her world came apart. Her parents revealed to her that they had been deconstructing their faiths for the last few years and had both come to the conclusion that they wanted to leave the church with their family. It was something that they had been grappling with more and more as their children aged, but they had always felt misplaced in the heavy religion that they were steeped in due to a very specific reason. Audre’s mother and father had both known since childhood that they were gay. They were each the first person that they had told one another about their sexuality and were close confidants for one another. Eventually deciding to marry as a means to protect each other and to give themselves a chance at being ‘normal,’ but it never really felt right. They now felt that they had the confidence to shift away from the judgmental and harsh reality that they had been subjected to and to give their children the chance to have the freedom and ability to be themselves that they never had.
The family moved out of the south and divorced, as well as changing their children’s middle names from the very religion heavy ones they had picked out previously. All the new updates lead to them being cast out of their families as ‘sinners’ but both of them agreed that they were happier now than they were living a lie. Later on Audre’s father would remarry but she doesn’t see him much in person nowadays as he’s heavily involved with LGBT+ outreach programs across the world and seeks to help save kids from going through what he did. They talk on the phone often enough but sometimes the service in the countries he’s in isn’t so great so it’s not uncommon for radio silence to occur for weeks on end. [name_f]Audre[/name_f] and her siblings still love their father, but there is a conflict arising from his absence. Especially from [name_f]Audre[/name_f] herself who is now reaching the age where she’s beginning to figure out her own sexuality and gender expression and feels that her father is spending more time helping other kids going through that process than he is with his own children. Sometimes she wonders if he regrets having her and her siblings and occasionally doesn’t pick up the phone when he calls.
She’s also processing her own thoughts about religion, her parents are both now agnostic though encourage the children to settle with what feels right for them instead of following what they chose. [name_f]Audre[/name_f] isn’t sure at all where she stands and is highly confused by her feelings surrounding the topic. For now she’s mostly focusing on her life in the moment instead of worrying about morality and spirituality.
[name_f]Em[/name_f] has been very supportive of her family and Audre’s ‘general life confusion syndrome’ as the girls have been jokingly calling her attempts to figure things out. They joined the cheer squad together and have been known to sleepover at one another’s houses after practice. [name_f]Audre[/name_f] is also known somewhat by Em’s paternal family as they’ve been friends for so long and [name_f]Audre[/name_f] adores Em’s granny as well. Though she doesn’t miss the bigoted nature of her own extended family she does find herself sometimes craving some of that specific brand of comfort that she once received from her grandmother.
[name_f]Audre[/name_f] loves Em’s storytelling ability and always enjoys hearing whatever stories that she has to share with her and the rest of the cheer squad or gymnastics team. She’s also in the same boat as her in being unsure of the future, but she’s glad she’ll have a friend in [name_f]Em[/name_f] no matter what the two of them end up doing