I’m so so sorry to hear this @sabrielschild Its such an awful thing to go through and nothing anyone can say makes you feel much better. As trite as it sounds, time does heal and makes a huge difference; you will feel better, but for now be kind to yourself and take all the time you need to mourn your loss. It’s so much to process, both physically and emotionally. If you can reach out to others who may have experienced the same thing I think it’s helpful: just to feel less alone and more supported—you are so brave to begin that process by sharing here.
I have embedded the following, in case it is difficult/triggering for some people to read who may have also experienced this:
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I have gone through the same thing so I can speak a bit to the process/what to expect at least as far as I experienced it. I waited for my body to pass the pregnancy naturally (which may or may not be an option for you?) and it started with mild contractions that progressed gradually. It was not pleasant, but as you have had a child before, you will be very well prepared to handle it. After the sac has passed, it really feels like a very heavy period. And I was mostly able to manage that stage with paracetamol or similar. (I also lost a pregnancy that was more developed, and that was a very different, more difficult, process). Speaking for myself, I felt so much better once it was all over. There was something awful about being in the intermediate stage when you are still feeling pregnant, but know you were not. Feeling like it was over and I could grieve and move on somehow felt like a huge weight lifted. I empathize so much: it’s heartbreaking.
I really hope you have a good support system around you, and feel able to reach out to those you feel you can trust and feel close to. Wishing you all the best at this difficult time.