12dpo and my cycle is due to restart [name_f]Tuesday[/name_f], BFN. In all my other pregnancies I’ve had a positive test by now so I think I’m very likely out this time. I think I was too hopeful that maybe we’d get lucky quickly and not have to endure more months of trying, so I’m feeling a little heartbroken. Sometimes I take for granted the idea that I WILL be pregnant and a mother one day, when there’s really no guarantee it will happen for us. It might not, who knows. I’ll be 34 by the time any baby is born, I always thought we’d be on baby 3 or 4 by now. [name_m]Just[/name_m] kind of venting, I’ve realized lately that I don’t have a lot of community and support for these feelings outside of Nameberry, I don’t know anyone trying for a baby in real life or anyone struggling with infertility, and it’s one of those things that if you don’t know it, it’s hard to understand. Feeling alone.
@Maerad — I think [name_f]Alice[/name_f] is just lovely! And adore [name_m]Colin[/name_m] from your boys choices!! [name_m]Russell[/name_m] is a name I really want to like, but it’s the name of my Moms boyfriend haha so…. However, it also makes me think of Up, the Pixar movie which is a fantastic reference and makes it accessible for a child. [name_m]Rusty[/name_m] as a nn for [name_m]Russell[/name_m] has always made me smile too.
I’m also very happy to hear [name_m]Evander[/name_m] [name_m]Philip[/name_m] is perceived by everyone positively so far!! [name_m]Evander[/name_m] has been on and off my list for years, never quite in the top spot but it hits a lot of good points. I love [name_m]Anders[/name_m] as a nn, and it honours my Fiancé [name_m]Andrew[/name_m] as well as my Dad. I haven’t mentioned it to him in years, but he didn’t have negative thoughts on [name_m]Evander[/name_m], references the Boxer Holyfield and his infamous fight with [name_m]Mike[/name_m] [name_u]Tyson[/name_u]. I’m not sure I’ll bring it up as an option quite yet just because there’s no baby to name yet. He’s a very pragmatic person and won’t see the point in the discussion until I’m pregnant!