tw: child abuse, domestic violence, depression & associated mental health struggles
Almeria " Alma " Martina Tirado (18) is the second eldest sibling and generally considered the most overt in how she expresses her experiences from childhood. For Alma, her father was a confusing figure throughout the early years of being away from him. While he was incredibly cruel, selfish and aggressive, he was far more prone to apologising to his children after beating them, and gaslit them about what happened. His preferred tactic was claiming they’d provoked him by disappointing him or misbehaving - an even more ridiculous accusation given how the children were always walking on egg shells. Subsequently, Alma struggled with misplaced blame throughout her pre and early teens, developing depression at just thirteen which manifested in self-harm and skipping school when she started having panic attacks. She struggled with reconciling memories of her fathers’ glimpses of kindness with the monster he embodied just as easily, only really confiding in her big sister, but held back when she realised the strain could devastate her even more.
What Alma did use as an effective distraction technique was her work ethic with what she enjoys and natural interest in writing. Journalistic pieces, poems, fiction, whatever it is, Alma finds herself drawn to it and puts in as much effort as possible. This caused her teachers to reevaluate what they first saw as acting out in distraught anger as how much she feared failing, mirroring the way her father made her feel, and with proper counselling, she had a lot of capability in numerous subjects, not just her favourite one. While she sometimes does skip class when her mental health is at its worse point, Alma no longer just walks out of school and is allowed to see the counsellor before taking study leave in the library. Her best friend is Ivy Zhang, who often accompanies her to the library on account of her notable achievements, and Alma’s always supportive towards her, recognising how much ability, talent and potential Ivy has, which she does her best to encourage. More than anything, Alma cannot abide pity and becomes very cagey when she senses this being directed. She’s usually quite polite and aloof, but there’s a coolness that comes over Alma when she’s angry, causing her to shutdown and ignore whoever’s aggravated her.
Alma has suspicions regarding what prompted Josè to go to therapy but doesn’t consider it her place to ask him questions why - knowing it could bring back painful memories. To her younger siblings, Alma tends to be seen as a little elusive - spending her time reading, watching so-bad-it’s-good films or hanging out with her friends - but the youngest (twins who were born after Carla and the others fled) have a special place in her heart, as she wants to protect them from the pain given they escaped meeting their father. She’s fine with her tight-knit group coming over due to having her own space - the largest bedroom going to her and her big sister as they opted to share, on account of their closeness, which is apparent to this very day - even though the eldest Tirado sibling’s started college and is studying most of the time, or off with her own friends. On one occasion she did fight with her mom - going to stay with her uncle - after Carla discovered Alma had been smoking (a habit she picked up independent from any friends, merely choosing it for stress relief), but they reconciled quickly after the guilt ate away at Alma, prompting her to call her mom and they talked things through properly. Her older uncle is someone Alma loves dearly though, seeing him more akin to a father figure in certain ways, and she babysits his kids (her very little cousins) in thanks for how he always got her secondhand books when she was feeling down.
Ivy is credited to @chamwue