Back everyone!
Soooo, TTC has proven harder than I ever thought! I’m emotionally drained and a little scared.
We have until march until we can see a fertility specialist - lets hope it doesn’t have to happen.
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@hyacinthbucket I’m a day late now, but my test just came back negative. I’m guessing I’ve stressed myself late. It’s odd though. I’m never late. I can’t ever remember being late. Oh, well. [name_m]Just[/name_m] have to keep trying!
I hope everyone feels good! Sending lots of positive energy.
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@LiliMorgana, I hope that this pregnancy is easier on you but with just as good an outcome.
I’m really curious to see if your theory holds for me, too… whether I’ll be more sensitive to the changes this time around.
I’m a smidge disappointed you didn’t hang around for the [name_u]July[/name_u]-[name_m]Sep[/name_m] 2021 group that I’m shooting for, but so so happy for you. I hope there might be a mass exodus from the group this month!
@_thelittlefairywren, however your body reacts this month will be right. Curious, have you ever skipped ovulation before? Being patient when we want to be patient is the worst, right?
@flowerbed, we are here for all the necessary venting (and some of the superfluous, too 
). This process messes so much with the mind. It is OK to feel drained and scared. Who knows, mayve having [name_u]March[/name_u] in mind will help? You know what your next steps will be in a few months. In the meantime you have many months to try.
@pennysola. Holding out hope until you say you’re out this month. Hopefully you’ll have clarity soon.
Nothing much new here. Though I did secure a dropoff playdate for H on the day birthmom is taking A out late next month. So… we will have our empty house to do with what we will for a few hours! DH has scheduled the day off for the occasion. 
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Exactly, I’m not worried at all just impatient. 
I’ve had one genuinely anovulatory cycle out of thirty-four tracked cycles and it was just after coming off the pill.
Haha so very true. 
Wow, you really are making an occasion of it 
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@hyacinthbucket Hey, if you conceive twins for July, they usually come a few weeks early. So you’ll really be due in June too! No pressure! 
Even if we don’t make it to the same due date thread, you can always send me a DM if you want to chat.
@_thelittlefairywren I hope things regulate soon for you! It must be a bit frustrating, when I didn’t ovulate a cycle back (I think) I was so impatient to get on with things, but then the following cycle was business as usual (and with a good result). So hopefully things get back to normal and you catch that egg!
@pennysola My first cycle trying I had so many symptoms I shouldn’t even have been having because it was so early, lol. I noticed every little thing (and probably created a few more for good measure) and it turned out to be nothing. I think TTC makes us crazy. So you can have an abundance of symptoms and not be pregnant, or none at all and still be pregnant. I hope you get your positive soon!
I’m just hanging around still (hope that’s alright) while I pee on cheapie tests daily to watch the line get darker, lol. It’s reassuring since I haven’t missed my period yet and I did have that early miscarriage/chemical a few years back. That line never got darker and then it was over, so hopefully things are going well with this one. I’m just waiting to miss my period and then I’ll call the clinic to have bloodwork done to confirm, which will probably make it seem a bit more real. Had some nausea yesterday and a lot of cramping but so far am better today.
Oh, also! We talked baby names last night over dinner (as you do) and he says he doesn’t care if I use Morgana! He said I care way more about the middle names than he does (this is true) and so I can go ahead and pick what I want (within reason). So then I found a website that says Morgana in various accents (I had a thread here a few months back about this and it was pretty divided based on location) and I thought I was saying it wrong and would have to change the spelling to Morganna (which doesn’t look as nice to me) BUT the website I found said it in a Canadian accent and that’s how I say it too! So I can spell it Morgana and continue to pronounce it how I have been! This made me really happy!
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@LiliMorgana how far along are you? I wish I could be there with you for a [name_u]June[/name_u] baby lol.
I’m 5/6 dpo and had nausea for two straight nights, which never happens to me but tbh it’s kind of impossible it’s pregnancy related, I’m just being crazy. Took a test today and obviously BFN. I’m not very optimistic about this cycle, I know it’s way too early but I just don’t feel pregnant
I’m 3w5d today (or 14dpo?). I got a faint positive at 10dpo. I had flu-like symptoms a few days before (really tired, felt like I’d been hit by a bus and was coming down with something) and I wonder now if that was implantation? So maybe that’s what you’re feeling? Fingers crossed it is! If it is, give yourself a day or two to implant, then two days for the hormone to rise before testing. I would wait until 9 or 10dpo at the earliest, even though I know it’s so hard to wait! @AlSP
Thank you!
I promised myself I wouldn’t test until [name_f]October[/name_f] but I failed 
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Hmm. Well it could happen this month. Or not. [name_f]Hope[/name_f] your body figures out which way it wants to go.
Haha yes. Honestly with quarantine/social distancing a couple hours alone in our house will be such a treat, so it is worth planning a month in advance, TTC or no. But I’m so glad it looks like it will line up. Hoping my body cooperates.
[name_u]True[/name_u]… I wouldn’t know for first or second trimester though at least. I steer clear of ultrasound (didn’t have one with H). [name_f]My[/name_f] homebirth midwife has never had undiagnosed “surprise” multiples but she has been the one to say, “I think you’re having twins. Want to go get an ultrasound?” Several times, with reason. And one of those times it was actually natural conception triplets!! Most twins she helps catch have been diagnosed first trimester though, as many people obviously choose to get ultrasounds.
I will likely reach out, once you leave us forever. Thank you.
[name_f]Glad[/name_f] you feel you can use [name_f]Morgana[/name_f].
@AlSP, I’m hopeful for you! If I were nauseated for days, even so early, it would be impossible not to test. I don’t think it was a failing of your self-control or anything not to wait until [name_f]October[/name_f]. But hang in there another couple days now and then let us know!
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Yep. [name_m]Can[/name_m]’t do much, but wait it out. Had more peak fluid today, so here’s hoping for ov. Although I’ve been working flat out filling in for someone else at work, so haven’t really been interested in adult activities recently.
That’s true. I’m sure having quiet time together will be nice for you both! Our restrictions are pretty low here, so I forget that some places are still pretty house-bound. Also, I’m sure it’s an entirely different experience with little people! I can’t imagine how you keep them entertained indoors all the time.
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No update yet. I think I’m going to start testing tomorrow. [name_f]My[/name_f] period is expected on [name_m]Friday[/name_m]. [name_f]My[/name_f] boobs have been very sore the past few days and I’ve been tired but I haven’t been sleeping well the past few days, I’m not sure why.
This week is my dad’s birthday and the year anniversary of his death so I’m sort of hesitate to test this week because I don’t want to find out I’m pregnant on the anniversary of my dad’s death. It’s just alot of different emotions.
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Well, I’m officially out for this round, guys! This whole process has been so weird and I’ve been a bad version of myself. I’m hoping I’ll be saner and calmer the next time around. 
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@pennysola I’m sorry to hear that. I hope next month is your month!
@PrincessShannon I’m so sorry for your loss. Anniversaries are hard and having his birthday and death so close together must make for one hell of a week. [name_f]My[/name_f] situation is extremely different so I might be way off here, but I have always had problems with the month of [name_u]June[/name_u]. For many personal reasons, there are anniversaries there that I always dread and continue to upset me 20+ years later. It’s a hard time of year for me to the point that when we TTC’d the last baby, I wanted to skip that month altogether, just so there wouldn’t be a birthday then. Well we didn’t and of course I got pregnant. The whole month I was like “please don’t come on that day.” It was nerve-wracking. I missed both anniversaries by a week. Now I’ll be due right then again. But I’ve found I no longer dread the month the way I used to, because I no longer only associate it with tragedy but with my little girl’s birthday. Her birth has made it a lot easier and I’m glad I didn’t skip it. So my point is, you might not want to find out you’re pregnant then, but in hindsight it might make all of it easier, because you’ll have a good association to help balance out the awful one. Either way, whatever you decide, if you’re pregnant the test will still turn positive a few days later if you feel you need to wait to find out. That’s totally fine. Regardless, lots of love and strength to you this week.
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I’m just started using an additional tracking/charting app. And predictions are quite different (AF expected between the 22nd-29th) between them so I am waiting until [name_f]October[/name_f] 1st to test.
I don’t feel pregnant, but I don’t have any of my usual tell-tale period symptoms either. Some cramps, but not like period cramps. [name_f]My[/name_f] breasts feel heavy (but they’re big to begin with so that’s not helpful ) and I’ve been ridiculously hungry. I try to delay eating as late as I can during the work day (I start working at 6AM) but I’ve been getting hungry around 7:30. I used to be able to wait until my lunch hour around 10:30. So it’s all weird and different. I realized that if I am pregnant now, my due date would be around our 1st wedding anniversary.
@LiliMorgana Thank you for your kind words. I completely understand what your saying about a positive association helping with a negative one as well. [name_f]My[/name_f] husband keeps saying if I am pregnant, that its a sign from my father because of the timing. I bought a test today but am going to take it tomorrow morning as we will see from there.
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We have been cautious. We still only see people outdoors and with masks (I haven’t set foot in any of my friend’s houses since [name_f]February[/name_f], nor has anyone except A’s birth mom come into our home). [name_f]My[/name_f] partner works grocery, so we use our family risk there. We also don’t have any family near us to help us with the kids and haven’t been able to pod with other families since we don’t seem to be on the same page about risk reduction. I’m used to being around my kid(s) all the time but it would be great to be able to have more playdates, drop-off and not.
I’m with your husband that it would be meaningful. If I were in your position, I think I would be afraid to test for the opposite reason: that if I got a negative, I would feel more down and be disappointed that it wasn’t a sign or something positive to now remember about a sad date. Whatever you are feeling is justified, though. And you’ll find out whenever you test, whenever that is (unless you test too early).
@stephaniebrooke, looking forward to hearing back from you. [name_f]Hope[/name_f] it works out.
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Ended up taking a test yesterday with a BFN. Still no AF yet so I’m going to wait until [name_m]Friday[/name_m] and I’ll test again then if no AF. I’m going to try OPK’s next month to see if maybe we are completely off the mark. Does anyone have suggestions of OPK’s they prefer? I’ve been looking at the easy@home brand.
@PrincessShannon Those are the ones I use (their pregnancy tests are good for bulk too). I’ve never had a problem. They’re not the most sensitive (First Response is more so), but with my daughter I got a BFP at 9dpo with one, so they’re pretty decent I think. Sorry it was a BFN. I’m still hopeful for you!
I think my period was due today and the line on the tests is now about as dark as the control line. So that’s very reassuring. [name_m]Just[/name_m] waiting until [name_m]Saturday[/name_m] to hopefully get into the clinic for a bloodwork requisition. I’ll feel better once it’s actually confirmed. Any news from anyone else?
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We’re in pretty much the same boat. I had a negative test this morning, but no AF and none in sight, minus a little pink spotting two days ago. However, my cycle is completely irregular so there is just no telling when things will happen. I bought Easy@Home BBT thermometer and some OPK tests. If you sign up for the Premom app, you get a discount on the Easy@Home brand tests.
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It’s [name_f]October[/name_f], y’all! The month I’ve been waiting for!!! Pretty sure I ovulated yesterday but it’ll be a day or two till I can tell for sure but this was my final pre-TTC ovulation. Time to ditch protection for good!
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